To you...

My brothers and sisters,
What you are about to read is the result of God working and speaking to my heart in recent times. I’ve been convicted that I am holding back my words and in turn, holding back His glory, and I am not going to do that anymore. In a lot of ways, this could be different than things you have read from me before. But in this, I choose to be God inspired and allow Him to speak through me, and because the character of God bears many attributes, this entry may bear different tones. These are not my words, but rather His; I am but a mere vessel for these words. Know that I am a woman continually being shaped by Christ and I have flaws of my own. I come to you in humility but also in earnestness to implore you to allow God to speak to you. All I desire out of this is two things: one, that I will do what God is calling me to do in releasing these words to You, and two, that God will speak to you through this. If you wish to talk to me about anything, I am here, just let me know. Know I am praying for you all and it is out of love that I say these words.
In His Power,
Elise

Seeking the Better Way
“As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all of the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, ‘Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!’ ‘Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:38-42

Mary sought the better way. She remained at Christ’s feet for she knew that was where she belonged. All of these gifts we have been blessed with are nothing if we aren’t willing to surrender them for His doing. As Martha was so busy with distractions, though she was operating out of her gifts, she wasn’t choosing the better way. She wasn’t allowing God to flow through that gift; instead she allowed herself to become frustrated with others things. We should not worry and become upset, for we choose the better way. It must be this in our lives.

Jealous God
“Do not worship any other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.” Exodus 34:14

In the relationship we have with God, there is no room for selfishness on our part, only obedience and worship. All the glory and honor is unto Him and all we do is out of obedience and reverence to Him. For what would this relationship be if each were jealous? We submit to God because He is God. We worship Him because He is God. He is intolerant of unfaithfulness; this is shown all over the Old Testament. “The Great God Almighty that fills the universe and overflows into immensity can never be surrounded by that little thing that we call our brain, our mind, our intellect—never, never, never! Never can we rise to face God by what we know and by what we are, but only by love and faith are we lifted thus to know Him and adore Him!” (Tozer) Therefore all selfishness and self must flee on our part because there’s no room for it in loving Him. The only thing we seek and desire is Him and in that, all other things will come.

Blessings
The LORD will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the LORD your God and walk in his ways. Then all the peoples on earth will see that you are called by the name of the LORD, and they will fear you. The LORD will grant you abundant prosperity - in the fruit of your womb, the young of your livestock and the crops of your ground - in the land he swore to your forefathers to give you. The LORD will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom. Do not turn aside from any of the commands I give you today, to the right or to the left, following other gods and serving them. Deuteronomy 28:9-14

The things I hold onto the most are the blessings God has given me. Yet He is telling me that blessings do not come in place of Him and His plan; rather, they accompany it. We must step out in faith and when we do so, we will be blessed beyond anything we could ever imagine. To be “selfish” we must be unselfish. To receive the blessings that are of Him and more sweet than we could ever imagine and the ones we desire so much of, we must be unselfish in our response to Him. We must be unselfish in how we live our life and let it always be an offering to Him.

Sacrificing All
“Then he said to them all: ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self? If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels. I tell you the truth, some who are standing here will not taste death before they see the kingdom of God.” Luke 9:23-27

“Our fathers worshipped in this mountain; and ye say, that in Jerusalem is the place where men ought to worship. Jesus saith unto her, Woman, believe me, the hour cometh, when ye shall neither in this mountain, nor yet at Jerusalem, worship the Father. Ye worship ye know not what: we know what we worship: for salvation is of the Jews. But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him. John 4:20-23

The times are changing, and it’s up to us how we choose to respond. Revival is beckoning, and we can choose whether or not we want a part. This revival that is coming is different than anything we will ever know. It will shake the heavens and its power will be unleashed upon this world. Such is God’s desire for His people to know Him, and He will do anything it takes to bring His people back. With the power of the Lord comes great things, such as large multitudes of people being saved and baptized, people being healed, and our entire schema of the world changing before our eyes.
After reading reports about the revival happening at UCLA, God was asking me tough questions I either needed to answer or remember my answer to. The following is from a journal entry of mine that I wish to share with you.
“After reading these reports by Jaeson Ma of revival at UCLA, something stirred inside me that I haven’t felt in a long time, or ever. As he talked about this dying generation that is so stuck in rituals and the church game, and how we must take it by force, for the Kingdom of Heaven suffers violence, I knew this is what You’ve been needing to break through to me for quite some time. As I read this, I was uncomfortable, for it scared me in some ways. Lord, this revival coming is different than anything we will ever know. It will shake the heavens and its power will be unleashed upon this world. Such is Your desire for Your people to know You, and You will do anything it takes. At UCLA, people were being healed and saved, and Lord, I know this is Your plan, but do I really believe it? Do I live and breathe it every moment of every day that it literally becomes the source of life on which I depend? Do I not only rest solely in Your presence and on Your promises, but have the bold faith to know that You will fulfill those in ways unimaginable to the mere human mind? Lord, we’ve been talking about how we can pray and pray and pray for revival, but unless it comes as a result of the heart desperately seeking and crying out for revival, it won’t do much. I say I want revival, but You are convicting me of whether or not I am willing to sacrifice ALL for it. But as You say in Your word, whoever seeks his life will lose it, but whoever loses it for Your sake will find it. Everything I have is Yours, but am I willing to give it all back to You if You so call me to do so? Everything I am, everything I do, everything I have? Such is the cost that is so necessary to reach a dying generation, O Lord, and if I am to be a chosen one, I must decide what I am going to choose. In everything I do, will I make the sacrifice necessary at the given time, to die to self and desires, to die for the sake of knowing You? You are leading me into uncharted territory, Lord, this I know, and this scares me. More so than ever I feel this now.

But as I came to You in the quiet yet raging depression I was stuck in five and a half years ago, You renewed me, restored me, called me as Your own. It was there I found life and found something worth living for. I found a God who gave me purpose, One who would fight for me, One who loved me in the way I had been seeking all my life. It was there I found myself, there I knew I was a chosen one of You. It was there I found something worth living for. But here I am at the point of finding someone worth dying for. Am I willing to die to myself, to all the things I know, all the things I cling to, all my ideas, hopes, and dreams in order that Your kingdom be advanced on earth, that this dying generation will come to know the One who gave me life? It’s not a choice I make and change day after day, it’s a life modeled after the One who showed me how to live, it’s a journey of attaining wisdom from the Giver of knowledge, it’s a pursuit of a love more fulfilling and tempting and sweet than ever thought possible, and it’s a walk in the dangerous side, for You are not safe and we are in a battle for not only our hearts but all the souls of men.


Falling Away
“Here is my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen one in whom I delight; I will put my spirit on him and he will bring justice to the nations. He will not shout or cry out, or raise his voice in the streets. A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness he will bring forth justice; he will not falter or be discouraged until he establishes justice on earth. In his law the islands will put their hope. This is what God the Lord says—he who created the heavens and stretched them out, who spread out the earth and all that comes out of it, who gives breath to its people and life to those who walk on it: I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the people and a light for the Gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free captives from prison, and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness. I am the Lord; that is my name! I will not give my glory to another or my praise to idols. See, the former things have taken place, and the new things I declare; before they spring into being, I announce them to you. Sing to the Lord a new song, his praise from the ends of the earth, you who go down to the sea, and all that is in it, you islands, and all who live in them. Let the desert and its towns raise their voices; let the settlements where Kedar lives rejoice. Let the people of Sela sing for joy; let them shout from the mountaintops. Let them give glory to the Lord and proclaim his praise in the islands. The Lord will march out like a mighty man, like a warrior he will stir up his zeal; with a shout he will raise the battle cry and will triumph over his enemies. For a long time I have kept silent, I have been quiet and held myself back. But now, like a woman in childbirth, I cry out, I gasp and I pant. I will lay waste the mountains and hills and dry up all their vegetation. I will turn rivers into islands and dry up the pools. I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them. But to those who trust in idols, who say to images, ‘You are our Gods,’ will be turned back in utter shame. Hear you deaf, look you blind and see! Who is blind but my servant, and deaf like the messenger I send? Who is blind like the one committed to me, blind like the servant of the Lord? You have seen many things, but have paid no attention; your ears are open, but you hear nothing. It pleased the Lord for the sake of his righteousness to make his law great and glorious. But this is a people plundered and looted, all of them trapped away in pits or hidden away in prisons. They have become plunder, with no one to rescue them. They have been made loot, with no one to say ‘send them back.’ Which of you will listen to this or pay close attention in time to come? Who handed Jacob over to become loot, and Israel to the plunderers? Was it not the Lord, against whom we have sinned? For they would not follow his ways, they did not obey his law. So he poured out on them his burning anger, the violence of war. It enveloped them in flames, yet they did not understand; it consumed them, but they did not take it to heart.” Isaiah 42

Something that’s greatly been disturbing me as of late is how so many Christians are falling away as a result of going into the world unequipped. Instead of pulling others up to their level and being the leader, they go down to the other level and accept the fact that it’s easier to meet the other where he/she is at instead of bringing him/her up to where they are. Then, they remain in that lower level. There is a time for going to meet people where they are at, but it must not come at the price of our relationship with Him! Look at Christ with His ministry…it was only for three years. There was so much time beforehand in which He was being prepared for the three years in which He ministered. In order to go into the world, one has to be so strong not to be of it. Why are so many people not at this point? Why are so many people going into the world without any good sense and then coming out so blindly, having lost their first love and purpose for whom they live? It can’t be like this! I’m tired of seeing people “falling away” from Christ, thinking that in time, they will return. NO! The time is NOW to be with Christ and if they are fully in His presence, there’s no way they can escape. By becoming a Christian, they were accepting the gift of salvation that is free to us, but it came at a price. In becoming a Christian they are saying that they will leave their old ways behind and follow after Him. This is the sacrifice that so few make. How can one who has tasted and seen the ways of God live among the world and not see its fallen nature and be disgusted with it? This shows that so few Christians have had the encounter with Him that we so desperately need, for when we are completely captured by Him a passion will burn out of that, so as long as we dwell in Him and the Holy Spirit, it should never wane. Out of ourselves and this world, we can do nothing, but out of Him and His kingdom, we can do everything, for “the Christian who goes out without faith in ‘wonders’ will return without fruit. No one dare to be so rash that as to seek to do impossible things unless he has first been empowered by the God of the impossible. The power of the Lord was there is our guarantee of victory!” (Tozer). We must realize that we can no longer live by the ways of the world if we wish to truly live!

Choices
“When all these blessings and curses I have set before you come upon you and you take them to heart wherever the LORD your God disperses you among the nations, and when you and your children return to the LORD your God and obey him with all your heart and with all your soul according to everything I command you today, then the LORD your God will restore your fortunes and have compassion on you and gather you again from all the nations where he scattered you. Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven, so that you have to ask, "Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?" Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, "Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?" No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it. See, I set before you today life and prosperity, death and destruction. For I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess. But if your heart turns away and you are not obedient, and if you are drawn away to bow down to other gods and worship them, I declare to you this day that you will certainly be destroyed. You will not live long in the land you are crossing the Jordan to enter and possess. This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the LORD is your life, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give to your fathers, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.” Deuteronomy 20:1-3, 11-19

The other day I was walking through the UU and I had been for a couple of days looking to that corner in which we prayed during our prayer week and wondering why there was no one there anymore, wondering why everyone was gone. Why are we so quick to leave what we experienced that week and move on, treat it as a lost memory? I know in a lot of ways it was a preview of what is to come, but still, more than ever, we must carry that with us in every moment. If we forget how God brought the body of Christ together and how we united in prayer and how sweet our worship was, we have lost sight of the essential part of the revival. We have lost sight of the church gathering in the temple courts, the church of Acts, the church of believers, that when they came together God was able to use them in ways unimaginable to add thousands to the number saved daily. I’ve been discouraged in this fact, not just in others around me, but also in myself. Why am I so quick to leave and move on? We must always be pressing forward, yes, but we can’t lose sight of the vision. For if we are trying so desperately to always move forward to attain the vision, we get so close that we lose sight of what the vision is and get ahead of ourselves, get ahead of God. And another possibility is if we are trying to move forward, we can get off on the wrong path, thinking we are where we need to be, when in actuality, we’ve strayed and also lost sight of the vision in a different way. God has set before us life and prosperity and death and destruction. What path are we currently on? Which will we choose?


Lack of Mediocrity
Are all these words to go unanswered? Is this talker to be vindicated? Will your idle talk reduce men to silence? Will no one rebuke you when you mock? You say to God, 'My beliefs are flawless and I am pure in your sight.' Oh, how I wish that God would speak, that he would open his lips against you and disclose to you the secrets of wisdom, for true wisdom has two sides. Know this: God has even forgotten some of your sin. "Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? They are higher than the heavens-what can you do? They are deeper than the depths of the grave -what can you know? Their measure is longer than the earth and wider than the sea. "If he comes along and confines you in prison and convenes a court, who can oppose him? Surely he recognizes deceitful men; and when he sees evil, does he not take note? But a witless man can no more become wise than a wild donkey's colt can be born a man. "Yet if you devote your heart to him and stretch out your hands to him, if you put away the sin that is in your hand and allow no evil to dwell in your tent, then you will lift up your face without shame; you will stand firm and without fear. You will surely forget your trouble, recalling it only as waters gone by. Life will be brighter than noonday, and darkness will become like morning. You will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety. You will lie down, with no one to make you afraid, and many will court your favor. But the eyes of the wicked will fail, and escape will elude them; their hope will become a dying gasp." Job 11

I know that when I became a Christian, I didn’t sign up for a mediocre thing to do; rather I decided to seek after the One who so passionately sought me. In this comes great sacrifices, but when one truly looks at it from a Godly perspective, they will see that all these things they have seemed to have “lost” actually brings so much gain. For no longer do we have these things of the world holding us back, but rather we are being crucified from the inside out, allowing ourselves to be identified with Christ. It is there we walk in the path of life. So no more mediocrity! No more stating, “this is the way things are because that’s how they are”! No more saying “well things will change in time, but for right now…” No! If one wishes to live the life passionate (passion meaning whatever a person is willing to suffer for), it starts here and now, with them coming to Christ seeking Him out fully and completely, for “outward circumstances may hinder for a time, but nothing can long stand against the naked power of God!” (Tozer). It is time for us to take up the power of the Holy Spirit and dwell in that, allowing it to dictate everything we do and everything we say. “One of the reasons we exhibit so little spiritual power is because we are unwilling to accept and experience the fellowship of the Savior’s sufferings, which means acceptance of the cross. How can we have and know the blessed intimacy of the Lord Jesus if we are unwilling to take the route in which He has demonstrated? We do not have it because we refuse to relate the will of God to the cross” (Tozer). I think often times people are content to live in passivity. Okay then- you want to just let things happen as they wish? Well I can guarantee that if one lives this way in the world, he/she will be swallowed up whole before they ever knew what hit him/her. The only way to live in safe passivity is to be active in our pursuit of God. We must get our life into accord with his. “Are we willing to hear the voice of God and obey His bidding and do what He wants us to do?” (Tozer). After this question is answered with a resounding yes and our lives are in accord with His will for us, then we can live in a sense of passivity, for we will be completely surrendered in every single aspect to what He wishes to do. Nothing will have a hold on us anymore. Yet, so few really reach that place. There always seems to be something holding us back. It is so dangerous to think that we are in the right place and therefore we can be passive about who we are and what we do. It is so dangerous to claim “spiritual perfection.” Can anyone fully claim this on this earth?

Radical Obedience
This is what the LORD says- he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, who drew out the chariots and horses, the army and reinforcements together, and they lay there, never to rise again, extinguished, snuffed out like a wick: "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.
The wild animals honor me, the jackals and the owls, because I provide water in the desert and streams in the wasteland, to give drink to my people, my chosen, the people I formed for myself that they may proclaim my praise. Isaiah 43:16-21

It is time for some radical obedience on our parts as Christians. We must be willing to give up everything we have, everything we know, everything we are. If we truly want life and Christ, we must lose everything for that sake. If we truly want Him and His revival we must be so in tune with Him that our hearts beat the same as His, our hearts must hurt in the same way as His does for these people surrounding us. We must be moved to power as He moves in power, determined that through Him we will reach this dying generation. “The power of God is at our disposal, waiting for us to call it into action by meeting the conditions which are plainly laid down. God is ready to send down floods of blessing upon us as we being to obey His plain instructions.” (Tozer). Clear? Uncomfortable? Oh yeah. But worth it? A thousand times yes. As Tozer states, “[he] earnestly believes that God is trying to raise up a company of Christians in our day who are willing to be completely separated from all prejudices and all carnal desires. He wants those who are ready to put themselves at God’s disposal, willing to bear any kind of cross-iron or lead or straw or gold or whatever—and to be the kinds of examples He needs on this earth. The great question is: Is there a readiness, an eagerness among us for the kind of cross He wants to reveal through us?...As individuals we often say that we want revival to come. Revival will come to us and within us when we really want it, when we pay the price. Have you come to the place of heart-searching, of travail in the Spirit, the place of blessed pain and trouble for Jesus’ sake?”

I love you all too much to allow you to remain in the state you are currently in. It is now that I implore you to truly seek after the One who seeks you and leave everything behind! Stop making excuses, do what He has called you to do, starting right this very moment!!! I wouldn’t be the true sister in Christ to You if I just patted you on the back and said, “it’s okay, I’ll pray for you, hopefully it’ll get better in time.” I’ve done that far too long. I am going to be real with you and in this I am going to take hold of God’s power and call you to leave this state that you are in! Quit being satisfied with where you are at! There’s so much more than we can ever imagine and you are limiting yourself and not receiving His blessings by holding yourself back. You are a crucial part of the body of Christ and we cannot function without you. You’re not just hurting yourself, you’re not just grieving God, but you are crippling the body of Christ by holding yourself back. Be released from your chains of bondage. No longer will you be a slave of this world, but only a slave for Christ! You want a life of purpose? You want a life of blessings? You want a life of passion? Well GO! Seek it out NOW! Don’t waste any more time sitting around thinking it’ll come one day! THE TIME IS NOW! COMMIT YOURSELVES FULLY TO THE LORD AND TAKE HOLD OF HIS AWESOME POWER!

YOUR LIFE IS NOT YOUR OWN!
YOUR LIFE IS SOLELY FOR HIS GLORY!
HE WANTS TO USE YOU IN WAYS UNIMAGINABLE!
But will you?
The choice is yours…

“Let it be remembered that no one ever received the Holy Spirit’s power without knowing it. He always announces Himself to the inner consciousness. God will pour out His spirit upon us in answer to simple faith, but real faith will be accompanied by deep poverty of spirit and mighty heart yearnings, and will express itself in strong crying and tears” (Tozer).