Intricacies

These tears have wet my face and dried again
Sitting in the silence that probes my heart
Wrestling with where I am and where I should be
These things not easily changed
Oh that my heart’s desires would be of the purest nature
Seeking to glorify You in all
For nothing I deserve, but willingly You bestow
And how do I get my heart to agree that Your provision for the moment
Is more than enough?
Where is the line drawn between You and me?
What is of You and what have I taken in my hands?
My heart beats and my breaths are labored
A paradox between fear and surrender to You
How do I give my all yet hold back and wait at the same time
Wait on Your leading that only You can give
A struggle for contentment is where I am
For this heart You have created wants nothing but to love in full force
Am I quenching the fire that is meant to be kindled and burned
By wanting to go forth?
I seek You and ask You, the Creator of my inmost being
The shaper of my heart
That by Your grace You show me the way
To navigate the complex intricacies of my heart