Depths

The end of the school year is here and for once in some time, I'm really calm about it all. There have been times over the last couple weeks in which I was freaking out about change and all, for transition times are not exactly something I am fond of. Yet as I hiked up to the top of the hill with Elise last night for the sunset, God calmed me in a way that I needed so desperately. It wasn't just the calming that I've felt before of just pushing aside my fears and dealing with what is at the present, but a calm and joyful anticipation. I'm excited about this summer, I am finally getting back to that point. It won't be an easy summer, but how much God will do in this time and how much will be done for His glory!

It's as when I was sitting in the basement of a church here on Sunday just needing to be with God alone in the silence. The room was dark and only 3 exit signs were illuminated, two of which were in the room I was in. The other was in the conjoining room, in which I entered. God spoke to me so much in that time, stating that yes, these exits in the room I was in would be the easy way out, but didn't I want to see what laid on that journey to the far exit? The Christian life is not an easy one by any means; many sacrifices and comforts must be given up. But as I have set my sights on that far exit, I can't let any closer "exits" deter me or distract me from where I have declared I will go. God helped me conquer so much that night that was necessary to bring me to the point of all this week will bring and has brought.

It's amazing to look back on this year...how speechless I am. There are really no words to describe and not enough to state what has happened and how frutiful it all has been. It has been a year of extreme growth and blessing, and I know so much more is to come...all I can do is let the praise roll endlessly off my tongue and let it be a sweet, pleasing sound to my Lord.

I've been really struck by the concept of depth lately. The thing about depth is it's so difficult to reach its limit. You think you're deep in something and You realize You have infinitely farther to go. Such is my walk with Christ. How deep I have gotten this year, but how much more of the depths do I need and will go to to discover His character and His plans even more! God is infinite...! Another thing is the depth of the relationships I have here. One in particular has struck me as of late, in which God has been calling me to share things that will bring more depth to it, but as we swim deeper into that depth, I know there's so, so much more that remains...and it makes me smile to think that this is only the beginning. Depth is the endless journey on which we embark, with treasures lurking around every corner and uncertainty but much to be seen and experience. Though the depth in general intimidates me a bit, I know I will be going into those depths this summer...and what it will bring!

I can't wait for this summer with the summer project I am doing to see how 50 college students who love God come together as the body of Christ in a short time. We will see God move in amazing ways, both within each individual, and with the group. How amazing that will be! And I can't wait to see at the end of this summer, in which the body we have here will come back together. This is going to be a summer in which we take what God has taught us through one another, walk in the direction He is calling us to, taking those lessons with us, grow in maturity, become individuals of Christ, and come back together able to do so much more for Him! There's going to be some good stories...!

This will probably be my last blog until some time in Santa Monica. No promises of any kind are really going to be made this summer unless the Lord has commanded me to. This summer is His and His alone; all things that come of it will be because of Him, and not because of me.

Praise the Lord who leads us to walk with him as we grow in maturity and truth! It's time to spread our wings and fly!